A lot of changes have happened recently.  I no longer have a traditional job.  For once in my life I’m a full time house wife and student. I have talked in the past about not letting your choices define who you can be. But it goes deeper than that. The old me would be freaking out that I am not working and that I am not tied to something, like a job. I always thought that I was a career woman and it was how I defined my choice of jobs. But I secretly wanted to be a house wife that had to run a house hold all day. Now that I’m home, I can say that I really love being here every day and taking care of everything. I am still working on getting my next job. But this life change that I was thrusted in, has given me the time to dream. I’m dreaming and hoping that I can build a career that lets me bring in a good income and lets me work from home and on my terms. The one thing I have dreamed about for years but have never taken seriously. It’s a little daunting that I no longer have a job. I’m happier thought, and so much more relaxed. I am not coming home stressed out each day thinking about the things that went on at work. I never have been able to let things go. For me, my world is all or nothing and I felt that my career was a choice of how I wanted to live my life. I still believe in that. I believe that the jobs we choose make or break our lives. This is not just about the money, although it plays a big part, because we all need to eat, pay our bills, and have a little fun. It is about the decisions that play a part when deciding on what job to take. Is it worth all the stress and time traveling to and from work for this one type of job? Is it helping me become a better person? Is this job going to help me become that happier person I want to be? Most of us can’t answer yes to most of the questions above. I always had a rebuttal for that argument though. I was working on my dreams part time I would say. I was not a stupid dreamer that didn’t understand that it take a lot of work to make a life change. Well I found out that most of the time, a part time commitment to a passion doesn’t work. It may make you feel better for a few hours, but in reality it won’t help you get to your goal sooner. It takes a lot of time and courage to transition into something that you feel fulfilled at. What I forget is that it’s an average of 10,000 hours before someone becomes really good at anything. To put that in a job perspective, their equivalents to 250 work weeks at 40 hours a week. If you are only able to give 4 hours a week, it’s going to take a shit lot longer then you want to reach your dream. I am not saying that everyone should go out and quit their job and only work with their muse. Unless I had the same circumstances happen, I would still be employed sitting at my desk and dreaming the day away. I was never going to take the risk and jump off the cliff. I thought that I could work on my passion part time and reach that ultimate goal I have in mind. But, at least for me, that is not going to work. I have the opportunity to change my life by the decisions I am making. This doesn’t mean that I won’t take another job. But it means that I will make sure that I am more considerate about the jobs I am taking in the future. Is ever decision going to get me closer to my ultimate secret life? No. But I want each lesson I learn, with every fall, stumble and event that smacks me in the face to help get me there a bit faster than before.